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Year Four, Day 281: Yup, I'm Engaged!

 Hello My Friends!

I am feeling most accomplished. I am sticking to my blogging every day! Well, it's only 2 days in a row, but it's a start!

A journey of five years of blogging, begins with sitting my butt in front of the computer every day!

I am so happy I forced myself to blog yesterday.  Not only do I feel like I'm beginning to get back on track, it appears I have helped a few friends as well. And that is one of my goals with blogging. Not just therapy for myself, but hopefully by being transparent about my struggles, I can resonate with some of my readers.

I don't know about other people, but discovering a common struggle, I find, helps me feel just a little bit less alone in this world. And not quite such an odd duck!

I received several lovely messages from friends yesterday, sharing that they too struggled with depression.  Honestly, as we come through the Covid-19 pandemic, I think the whole world is experiencing a bit of depression and anxiety at some level.

I have had depression and anxiety as my side kick my entire life. When I was a child, I was labeled "shy". When I was a teen "low self esteem". 

I was quite aware of my oddness.  I read books like I'm O.K., You're O.K. and How to Be Your Own Best Friend beginning at about age 12!

I am feeling a shift lately.  I am feeling like I am  indeed OK. I am not odd, I am unique! And I rather like myself.

Wow? Did I just type that out loud? Who am I?

I am Zita. I am a daughter, sister, mother, aunt, great aunt and "Zma" (Grandma to two grand children with twins on the way!)

I am a piano teacher, a pianist, a blogger, a reader and a walker.

I believe in God. I believe in Love. I believe that God is Love.  

I love my family, my students, my friends, my fiance.

And finally, I can say I love myself!

I was going to say so much more. But perhaps I will save it for tomorrow.  It will give me a good reason to sit back in front of my computer. And perhaps a good reason for you to come back too!

By the way,  I am still chuckling at the replies from friends who read my blog yesterday, and exclaimed, "You're engaged?!"  

Yup.  He is wonderful. I can't imagine life without him.  There are speed bumps, but what road is safe without them?

Oh, and I posted notice of our engagement back in February on Facebook.  I've really got to start living in the real world more.  I apologize to everyone.  Kind of. But not really. We are older. We are stubborn. And we are getting married our way.  


I'll tell you more tomorrow.


In the meantime, Happy Saturday!

Love,


Zita



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