I had a fun day today. But I was VERY BAD! At least where my diet was concerned. In fact, to be totally transparent, I have been on a feeding frenzy since Friday!
Ok, I have not been very sensible regarding my eating for many months. I think it all started in the fall when I injured my back. Then I got the bad cough/flu around Christmas. Then my allergies started bothering me. Then we had to move...
Excuses, excuses!
At least I have been doing some sort of exercise daily. But I have really done some backsliding.
Last year around this time, I was on top of the world!
Funny, as I type this, the song "Forgiven" by Crowder. I love that song. And perhaps I need to forgive myself. It is tough. I am feeling massively guilty.
But also a little pleased. Because I spent the whole weekend with family. We celebrated my daughter's birthday, my brother's birthday and my mom and I just celebrated life.
So, what I have been pondering here again is balance. What kind of life would I lead if I always suffered? I think God wants us to enjoy this life. But in moderation.
Today in church, we had a guest preacher. Our beloved pastor is in Hawaii with his wife. The word is he is having a wonderful, relaxing time. That warms my heart. I want him to be healthy and stay with us for a long time!
The guest preacher was a member of the congregation. Much different sermon. No as intellectual. Usually I am frantically taking notes. Our regular preacher has studied all the biblical languages. I am always fascinated.
This pastor was more emotional. A sweet man. He always sheds a few tears when he preaches.
He also still gets nervous and is the first to admit it. We share that! I still have stage fright after all these years. Honestly, I just have life fright. It's called "anxiety".
Not to change the subject abruptly, but I just remembered a post I saw on Facebook that I forgot to save. It mentioned that the adult coloring books that are so trendy currently are proven effective in treating anxiety. I have one! It is a "Psalm" themed coloring book. Maybe I should color at night before bed!
Anyway, the guest pastor drew an image on the overhead projector right at the end of worship.
In a nutshell (and this is very simplistic, but I love it and need it),always look to God first, instead of our own desires or the expectations of the world.
Here is my rough diagram.
After church, I practically skipped down the road. A plan for life! My spirits lifted significantly.
If only I really sought God first instead of my stomach!
But there is hope. Today was a beautiful day. The sky was blue!
Even though I ate my way through the weekend, including chips, Diet Coke, french fries, french bread, pasta...oy! I can't go on, I am so ashamed!
But I had good family time.
And like I tell my piano students, we all make mistakes. It is not the making of the mistake that matters, it is how you respond. And the best thing to do is to keep going!
So I am dusting off my pride!
Tomorrow is another day.
I give myself permission to celebrate life!
But I also need to practice moderation and clean eating in every day life.
And back on the elliptical in the morning!
Ok. I have said enough for one day.
Oh, by the way, my fruit of the spirit today was "Love". And the person who I need to love right now is my authentic self. She needs a big hug. And no more chips!
Talk to you tomorrow. Happy Sunday!
Zita
Ok, I have not been very sensible regarding my eating for many months. I think it all started in the fall when I injured my back. Then I got the bad cough/flu around Christmas. Then my allergies started bothering me. Then we had to move...
Excuses, excuses!
At least I have been doing some sort of exercise daily. But I have really done some backsliding.
Last year around this time, I was on top of the world!
Funny, as I type this, the song "Forgiven" by Crowder. I love that song. And perhaps I need to forgive myself. It is tough. I am feeling massively guilty.
But also a little pleased. Because I spent the whole weekend with family. We celebrated my daughter's birthday, my brother's birthday and my mom and I just celebrated life.
So, what I have been pondering here again is balance. What kind of life would I lead if I always suffered? I think God wants us to enjoy this life. But in moderation.
Today in church, we had a guest preacher. Our beloved pastor is in Hawaii with his wife. The word is he is having a wonderful, relaxing time. That warms my heart. I want him to be healthy and stay with us for a long time!
The guest preacher was a member of the congregation. Much different sermon. No as intellectual. Usually I am frantically taking notes. Our regular preacher has studied all the biblical languages. I am always fascinated.
This pastor was more emotional. A sweet man. He always sheds a few tears when he preaches.
He also still gets nervous and is the first to admit it. We share that! I still have stage fright after all these years. Honestly, I just have life fright. It's called "anxiety".
Not to change the subject abruptly, but I just remembered a post I saw on Facebook that I forgot to save. It mentioned that the adult coloring books that are so trendy currently are proven effective in treating anxiety. I have one! It is a "Psalm" themed coloring book. Maybe I should color at night before bed!
Anyway, the guest pastor drew an image on the overhead projector right at the end of worship.
In a nutshell (and this is very simplistic, but I love it and need it),always look to God first, instead of our own desires or the expectations of the world.
Here is my rough diagram.
After church, I practically skipped down the road. A plan for life! My spirits lifted significantly.
If only I really sought God first instead of my stomach!
But there is hope. Today was a beautiful day. The sky was blue!
Even though I ate my way through the weekend, including chips, Diet Coke, french fries, french bread, pasta...oy! I can't go on, I am so ashamed!
And like I tell my piano students, we all make mistakes. It is not the making of the mistake that matters, it is how you respond. And the best thing to do is to keep going!
So I am dusting off my pride!
Tomorrow is another day.
I give myself permission to celebrate life!
But I also need to practice moderation and clean eating in every day life.
And back on the elliptical in the morning!
Ok. I have said enough for one day.
Oh, by the way, my fruit of the spirit today was "Love". And the person who I need to love right now is my authentic self. She needs a big hug. And no more chips!
Talk to you tomorrow. Happy Sunday!
Zita
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