Hello Friends!
It is Zita, your long lost daily blogger!
So much has happened since my last post. So many things that I simply cannot talk about in public!
I scarcely know how to begin. But my biggest news is the return of a very special man in my life. A man I lost contact with 18 years ago. It has been wonderful. I have been filled with joy. And also fear. Caring so deeply for someone does come with risks.
The worst part about this new/old love affair? I have felt the need to talk about it. Precisely, to blog about it! And I felt that I couldn't.
You see, when I first created this blog, I made a pact with myself to be open and transparent. But not to reveal personal details about people. Especially the living. I vowed to blog with a conscience.
Well, today my man from the past has given me permission to write about our experience. I'll call him "A" This is not a tell-all memoir. But the story is so incredible, I simply cannot keep it to myself. My son-in-law calls it a fairy tale. But fairy tales usually have happy endings. I do not know how this will end (I hope it never ends) but I am trying really hard to stay in the moment and enjoy these feelings.
And even more incredible - my blog has turned out to be a bit prophetic! For those of you who have been following my journey, I am going to quote myself, nerd that I am. This is from a post on June 10, 2020:
"One thought that came to me in the park today was: It is O.K. if I am invisible. My life is not over, but my youth is. I seem to be clinging to a raft. That raft is my self esteem, my broken dreams, and unfinished projects. The truth that is hovering beyond my acceptance is that I need to let go and be more in the now. And be ok with me as I am. But there is another aspect of me. A resistor. Someone who says my life is not over until it is over. I can still run that marathon. I can still break free with my music. I can still find a man to love. Wow, did I just type that? I didn't know that was even on my list."
https://soulrunnings.blogspot.com/2020/06/year-four-day-337-i-am-hub.html
....to be continued. (This is the first post in this series. I will continue it tomorrow. I promise!)
I hope you are all well and finding joy, peace, and happiness in your worlds.
Talk to you tomorrow!
Love to you all,
Zita
P.S. On an entirely different subject, I have completed 36 days of my IF/water fasting program. I have lost 7 pounds and at last I am not controlled by my appetite. I continue to fast most days after 2, only drinking water and tea. I give myself permission to eat a little later on Sundays, my "feast day", but usually I finish eating by 6 p.m. at the latest on Sunday.
My challenge is still struggling getting enough exercise in. I have injured my back twice. So I am walking and doing a bit of Qi Gong. I started Pilates, and am incorporating some posture exercises. But exercise is my priority now that my eating is under control.
I will give a update on my fasting program in a few days, when I hit 40 days - a most biblical number!
It is Zita, your long lost daily blogger!
So much has happened since my last post. So many things that I simply cannot talk about in public!
I scarcely know how to begin. But my biggest news is the return of a very special man in my life. A man I lost contact with 18 years ago. It has been wonderful. I have been filled with joy. And also fear. Caring so deeply for someone does come with risks.
The worst part about this new/old love affair? I have felt the need to talk about it. Precisely, to blog about it! And I felt that I couldn't.
You see, when I first created this blog, I made a pact with myself to be open and transparent. But not to reveal personal details about people. Especially the living. I vowed to blog with a conscience.
Well, today my man from the past has given me permission to write about our experience. I'll call him "A" This is not a tell-all memoir. But the story is so incredible, I simply cannot keep it to myself. My son-in-law calls it a fairy tale. But fairy tales usually have happy endings. I do not know how this will end (I hope it never ends) but I am trying really hard to stay in the moment and enjoy these feelings.
And even more incredible - my blog has turned out to be a bit prophetic! For those of you who have been following my journey, I am going to quote myself, nerd that I am. This is from a post on June 10, 2020:
"One thought that came to me in the park today was: It is O.K. if I am invisible. My life is not over, but my youth is. I seem to be clinging to a raft. That raft is my self esteem, my broken dreams, and unfinished projects. The truth that is hovering beyond my acceptance is that I need to let go and be more in the now. And be ok with me as I am. But there is another aspect of me. A resistor. Someone who says my life is not over until it is over. I can still run that marathon. I can still break free with my music. I can still find a man to love. Wow, did I just type that? I didn't know that was even on my list."
https://soulrunnings.blogspot.com/2020/06/year-four-day-337-i-am-hub.html
....to be continued. (This is the first post in this series. I will continue it tomorrow. I promise!)
I hope you are all well and finding joy, peace, and happiness in your worlds.
Talk to you tomorrow!
Love to you all,
Zita
P.S. On an entirely different subject, I have completed 36 days of my IF/water fasting program. I have lost 7 pounds and at last I am not controlled by my appetite. I continue to fast most days after 2, only drinking water and tea. I give myself permission to eat a little later on Sundays, my "feast day", but usually I finish eating by 6 p.m. at the latest on Sunday.
My challenge is still struggling getting enough exercise in. I have injured my back twice. So I am walking and doing a bit of Qi Gong. I started Pilates, and am incorporating some posture exercises. But exercise is my priority now that my eating is under control.
I will give a update on my fasting program in a few days, when I hit 40 days - a most biblical number!
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