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Year Four, Day 118: Unintentional Connections

It occurred to me on the bus ride home last night why I prefer to take public transportation. Yes, I am still beating that dead horse. Why someone would beat an animal, in particular a dead animal is beyond me.

Anyway, I have had people look at me like I am mad when I tell them that I have bused to work in Portland from Salem, Milwaukie, and now Vancouver, Washington.

One man said, "I wouldn't have the patience!"

But for me, it gives me time.  If I was driving, especially in traffic, that would be all I could do. Driver. I could listen to the radio.  I could think. But mostly I would be driving. And my knuckles would be white from clutching the steering wheel too tightly.

I have observed freeway traffic in Portland from the Max. And lately, it looks more like southern California.

I have way too much anxiety to submit myself to that.

On the bus, I can read, I can knit, I can check emails and place phone calls. I can even nap.

Going back to driving would send me back to my dark ages.

No thank you very much!


I am so enjoying the new book I am reading.  And still blown away by all the connections my reading have made with my real life. Unintentional connections.

For example, today is the 77th anniversary of the Bataan Death March, which I read about recently in John Grisham's The Reckoning.

https://sparkconnectempower.com/news-events/77th-anniversary-of-the-bataan-death-march/

My current book takes place in the Mississippi Delta.  Home of the author William Faulkner, who plays a role in The Reckoning.

It was also the birth place of Elvis Presley, BB King, and Alice Walker.

I have long been obsessed with Elvis. I named my Min-Pin after him. My beloved Elvis who lived to be 13 years old. With one eye missing the last 5 years of his life.

BB King was my idol when I discovered the Blues.

And the book,  The Color Purple touched my soul in dark places that I'm still trying to understand.

To tie all of my ramblings together, I have decided to keep on living minimally, and search for a roommate situation this summer.  Hopefully I will get a church job. The extra money I will start to save for some travel.

As I look towards the future, I hope to see experiences, people, and adventures. Not more things.

And on that note, I need to head out to teach piano and then go to choir practice.

I had a wonderful Qi Gong breathing exercise and hooping session this morning.  I had less sleep then usual last night and tonight will be another late night. But I feel good!

I probably should give a nod to the two cups of strong black coffee I inhaled earlier.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Happy Tuesday!

Love,

Zita



P.S. Below is today's Qi Gong/Hooping Video. Day 38!


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