I almost broke my fast yesterday. I was so hungry after I finished my teaching day. I realized I had a deep rooted pattern of celebrating most everything in life at a table with food.
When I am tired, after a long day of teaching, I still have that desire to reward myself.
I am working with mind sets going all the way back to my early days.
But I prevailed. I told myself I would regret it. I told myself that it is possible to live a different kind of life. One that is not centered around food.
I stopped at the store downtown Portland and bought a bottle of Perrier and a pack of sugar free gum. Ice Breakers Ice Cubes "Cool Orange". I am not a purist. I am practicing what they call "dirty fasting". I have an occasional Diet Coke, sugar free iced tea or an iced tea or coffee with a bit of heavy cream and sugar free syrup.
It is what is keeping me sane. As I continue to lose weight and hopefully gain more self control, I will gravitate over to clean fasting.
The water and gum did the trick. Especially the gum. I found myself wondering why no one has come up with fried chicken, buttered popcorn or dill pickle flavored gum?
Perhaps I should email Ice Breakers?
Or would that be taking a step backward in my food addiction.
I do know that having the flavor of a juicy orange in my mouth during my 20 hours fast helped me stay strong.
I managed to do some hooping this morning.
The next level is still more exercise. I am still looking for that extra hour a day and extra boost of energy to do all the things on my list!
For now, I am feeling stable and strong. I plan on continuing the intermittent fasting for as long as needed. I've thought about switching to one meal a day, perhaps later in the day because that is when hunger strikes with a vengeance. But there is no easy answer. That would mean suffering all day, looking forward to that one meal, like a ravenous animal.
I would prefer to settle into this style of living in such a way that I can be more present in my life.
I'm still working on that.
But I need to keep this short today. I am planning my music for my first day at my new church Sunday.
Good bye for now! Talk to you tomorrow.
Love,
Zita
When I am tired, after a long day of teaching, I still have that desire to reward myself.
I am working with mind sets going all the way back to my early days.
But I prevailed. I told myself I would regret it. I told myself that it is possible to live a different kind of life. One that is not centered around food.
I stopped at the store downtown Portland and bought a bottle of Perrier and a pack of sugar free gum. Ice Breakers Ice Cubes "Cool Orange". I am not a purist. I am practicing what they call "dirty fasting". I have an occasional Diet Coke, sugar free iced tea or an iced tea or coffee with a bit of heavy cream and sugar free syrup.
It is what is keeping me sane. As I continue to lose weight and hopefully gain more self control, I will gravitate over to clean fasting.
The water and gum did the trick. Especially the gum. I found myself wondering why no one has come up with fried chicken, buttered popcorn or dill pickle flavored gum?
Perhaps I should email Ice Breakers?
Or would that be taking a step backward in my food addiction.
I do know that having the flavor of a juicy orange in my mouth during my 20 hours fast helped me stay strong.
I managed to do some hooping this morning.
The next level is still more exercise. I am still looking for that extra hour a day and extra boost of energy to do all the things on my list!
For now, I am feeling stable and strong. I plan on continuing the intermittent fasting for as long as needed. I've thought about switching to one meal a day, perhaps later in the day because that is when hunger strikes with a vengeance. But there is no easy answer. That would mean suffering all day, looking forward to that one meal, like a ravenous animal.
I would prefer to settle into this style of living in such a way that I can be more present in my life.
I'm still working on that.
But I need to keep this short today. I am planning my music for my first day at my new church Sunday.
Good bye for now! Talk to you tomorrow.
Love,
Zita
My Qi Gong/Hooping Video of the day. Day 121 today!
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