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Year Two, Day 113: Call Me Shallow, But I Want to Wear Those Jeans Again...

I woke up very determined this morning. Determined to change.

Yesterday my daughter and I had a killer workout. I sweated rivers!  But I am not seeing the progress I would like. Especially in my core.

My daughter was happy to work my core. She is a pilates beast!

But I was just plain frustrated.  It is very humbling to try and do pilates with your beautiful 26 year-old daughter. Especially with so much extra blubber around my middle. And full length wall mirrors surrounding us!

I wanted to just sit down and cry.

I told her I like doing our sprint training. I can feel results. We walk briskly on the treadmill for 10 minutes. Then every 2 minutes we run as fast as we can for 30 seconds. We do this for 20 minutes.

If I can't handle the sprints, then instead of running as fast as I can for 30 seconds, I put it on as steep an incline as I can tolerate for 30 seconds.

It works well because, I can endure almost any torture for 30 seconds!

I also am increasing my weights. I enjoy weights. I like feeling strong.

But I think I really need to do the core work.  So my daughter and I had a heart to heart chat.

I told her my fears and frustrations.  So we are just going to add one pilates move to our routine.

You guessed it.

Drum roll please.

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THE DREADED PLANK!

There is no escape. What I resist persists!

Also, I am listening to more upbeat music while I work out and throughout the day. I especially like working out and walking to classic rock, hard rock and 80's music.  Particularly Def Leppard, Van Halen and AC/DC! I hope I haven't shocked anyone.

I also have been cranking up the tunes around the house, dancing while I clean and walking with better posture, engaging my abs in all I do.

I am a woman driven to succeed! I know I have talked about exercising my body and mind. Growing spiritually, being kind to others and making a difference in this word. 

But do you want to know a secret?  Deep down I really want to get into a nice fitting pair of jeans again. And have a nice man take me to dinner. And not be ashamed.

Call me shallow.

Maybe it is a mid life crisis.

But this is where I'm at.

And frankly I am tired of carrying this belly around.

I am honestly just sick and tired of it. And mad at it!  It makes me feel like a dumpy old woman.

And I am evicting it!

I am giving it 30 days notice.  And if it is not out of here, I am giving it the boot!

You are all my witnesses!

Ok...I better sign off now. I am at my library office. And typing like a mad woman on this keyboard. Starting to get odd looks.



Happy Tuesday!

 

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