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Year Two, Day 84: Believing in Myself

Day 4 of my "Happiness Way".

I had a difficult day.  Many obstacles, or "speed bumps" as I like to call them. In particular, I refer to the difficult passages in my piano student's pieces as speed bumps.

But I had life speed bumps today. Especially in the financial realm. Summer is hard on this piano teacher!

Luckily, I also had the opportunity to spend a good part of the day with my adult children. We had a lovely lunch at Pho Hung, which is a family tradition.  Good food, good conversation, good silliness. And the servers know us well. It is like coming home to family!  I also had a lovely time teaching my neighbors family from Vietnam to speak English yesterday.  It was the high point of my week. So I am not going to let something little like money get  me down. After all, it is only paper!

I am reconditioning my mind to think positively.  I read today about the subconscious in chapter 8: "I Don't Believe in Defeat".  

"An effective method for making your subconscious positive in character is to eliminate certain expressions of thought and speech which we may call the "little negatives." These so-called "little negatives" clutter up the average person's conversation,k and while each one is seemingly unimportant in itself, the total effect of these attitudes it to condition the mind negatively."
The Power of Positive Thinking, Norman Vincent Peale
So today was a good day to really put what I am learning into action. Everytime I felt a "little negative" crop up, whether as a thought or a spoken word, I edited it.  I told the kids what I was doing so they wouldn't think I was crazy, well err...crazier than usual! lol

And something truly wonderful happened.  I spent part of the morning at the doctor's office with my son. He got another CT scan and saw the neurologist to make sure he had healed properly from his concussion. As we sat in the waiting room, he asked to see the book I had been proclaiming about.

He read part of the first chapter. ("Believe in Yourself")

He put it down when the doctor called his name.  But before he went back, he looked at me and said,
"This is a good book, Mom. I'd like to read more!"

Hallelujah!

I am now going to pray that my son become an enthusiastic reader.  My gift to him in life.

As for me, I am praying for a part time job.

I love my piano students.  I love teaching!  But I need something consistent. Many students take vacations.  I have a solid core of regular students who have been with for many years (some over 10 years!), that I will never leave. But students do come and go as other interests grab them.

I see myself in a part time early morning office job. Preferably for a nonprofit agency that provides social services to people in need.

I can then keep my afternoons and evenings free for my stellar students.

And I am going to keep thinking positively until it happens!

Happy Monday! :)

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