Year Four, Day 162: Tree Lovers

Today I purposely ate a carb laden meal. I met my mom for breakfast. We both were short on cash, so we went to Burger King. I had a croissanwich, hashbrowns and black coffee.

It tasted wonderful. And I am back on my diet!

I guess I'll call it a cheat meal. My first in 3 weeks.Today is Day 21 keto.

I was getting extremely grumpy with all the political posts on social media. Feeling helpless about the treatment of migrant children in camps. Feeling deprived on my diet, and frustrated with the slow weight loss. Hurt by angry and mocking posts on social media. And just disillusioned in life in general.

My little carb laden meal cheered me up.

I'm still sitting on a 6 pound weight loss. But I hooped this morning before Burger King and I went to the gym after Burger King.

I'll be o.k.

I am starting to plan my next "Piano for All" concert. This has me hopeful and focused. Having goals motivates me. And playing the piano silences the negative voices in my head almost as much as gazing at trees, inhaling and praying.

I told my mother about my tree trick this morning. She looked at me and rolled her eyes.

"That's nothing new", she said. "I've been doing that for years!"

It seems we are both tree lovers and just now realized it!

I would like to share more, but my grandmother duties are calling me.

Even though I broke keto today, I have not broken my intermittent fasting! I am doing 14-16 hours of fasting with an 8 -10 hour eating window most days!

It is nice to know I can stick to something.

Aside for 102 days of daily hooping!

Gotta run. Talk tomorrow!

Love,

Zita

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