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Year Two, Day 140: More of Him

I am changing the focus of my blog today. My heart is aching, but this time as a mother.

My son was in a car wreck last night. He is ok, but his car is not. Please keep him in your prayers. He is 24. He has a good heart, but is learning some very difficult life lessons. He had been drinking. So this could have been much worse

He will have plenty of time to think in jail. :(

It doesn't always get easier being a parent as they get older. Still the worries. But since he is an "adult", there is less control.

In fact I am guilty of over mothering this man child of mine. Some things even a mom can't fix.

But nothing is too big for God.

I am praying that my son learn from this experience and grow.

Th funny thing is that I saw him yesterday morning. He asked me to fasten the cross necklace I had given him for his birthday a few years ago. After he had gotten clean and sober.

He told me yesterday that he needed"Him" in his life.

Ironically, he crashed into a fence outside a church.

And now I am looking at my own life. How I was so desperate for love that I allowed R to string me along with incessant text messages .

I think I need less of people like R. I need more of Him.

If you pray, please pray for my son and my family.

Thank you.

Peace.

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