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Year Two, Day 142: Serenity





Up at the crack of dawn I am.

My plan is to grab some hot coffee and head to the gym. I am actually craving the gym I missed my workout yesterday.

I seem to be on the verge to giving in to the stress all around me.

My workouts empower me. Help me feel strong and capable.

It is one thing I have control over in my life.

I am still working on moving past R. I have not spoken to him since Sunday morning. This will be day three of no R contact.

It is getting easier. I believe now that I was addicted to him. Or rather the thought of him.

So I am borrowing the the AA mantra: "One day at a time". But really, in my life it is more like taking one moment at a time.

And now, with my son facing diversion for his DUI, I am reading about the AA philosophy. The "Serenity Prayer" has always resonated with me in its profound simplicity. I did not realize, however that it is a snippet of a longer prayer:


The Complete Serenity Prayer
  • God, give us grace to accept with serenity
    the things that cannot be changed,
    courage to change the things
    which should be changed,
    and the wisdom to distinguish
    the one from the other.
    Living one day at a time,
    Enjoying one moment at a time,
    Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
    Taking, as Jesus did,
    This sinful world as it is,
    Not as I would have it,
    Trusting that You will make all things right,
    If I surrender to Your will,
    So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
    And supremely happy with You forever in the next.

    Amen.
    -- Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971

    Who could improve on these words? Certainly not me!

    Happy Wednesday!

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