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Year Two, Day 342: Back to the Basics

Back in the day, when I first began this blog, I was committed to walking daily on the trail near my home. And I was regularly stretching to classical music in the morning.

Today, I took a first step in getting my groove back. No, I didn't get up and run as I had planned. But, I did get vertical early enough to get a good stretching session in. I enjoyed going through the "Classic FM Hall of Fame" list.  Classical music seems to calm my mind.  Especially instrumental music.  And listening to this playlist, which comes from a British classical station, also stretches my mind.  Stretching my body and mind. Tis a good thing!

So here is a link to the playlist.Note: This Youtube video is reversed. #1 should be "The Lark Ascending". But I decided to listen in reverse order. So I stretched to Charles Gounod's - Judex from 'Mors et Vita' this morning.  Here is the link for the "Classic FM Hall of Fame" 2017 http://halloffame.classicfm.com/2017/


I read a bit about the composer, Gounod on the Classic FM's page.  Apparently he read the Bible at least 15 minutes a day.  I like this man!

My head is a bit clearer today. I am certain it is because of my morning stretching. I also included the dreaded plank and some crunches. I could only hold plank for 10 seconds, but I did 50 crunches.

It's a start!  Tomorrow I plan on rising early for that run!

Today's fruit of the spirit I focused on was kindness (from Galatians 5:22-23).  The days I focus on kindness, tend to be my best days.  Again, I noticed that when I am able to help others, even by simply sharing space and listening to them, the darkness in my soul lifts.

I did battle some demons today, however. I am still worried about my family member in crisis. But he is an adult. Last we spoke, he told me that he is "taking care of things" and his situation is not something I "need to stress myself out about".

Easy for him to say!

But he is right. Unless he comes to me for help, I need to step back.  Most co-dependent am I!

But that is what prayer is for.  When I feel helpless about a situation (which is quite often), I turn it over to God.  What I am not so good at is truly releasing the issue.  And trusting that God has His own methods. They are higher than mine.

I am going to admit it right now. I have control issues. Especially when it concerns my family.  And I am hereby going to start working on relinquishing that control.  Stepping back. Breathing. Taking care of myself. Enjoying life.

I am here if they need me.  But in the meantime, much living to do have I!


On that note, I am going to bed early. Much sleep I need if I am to rise with the chickens and go for a run.

Talk to you tomorrow.

Happy Wednesday!



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