Year Two, Day 55:Transformation

It's 7:04 a.m. I am still in bed. The window is open. A refreshing, cool breeze is wafting in. I need to get vertical and put the ribs in the crockpot,make the Dr. Pepper barbecue sauce, put the potatoes in the other crockpot, take a shower, stretch, make coffee...

Wait! Perhaps if I reverse that- make coffee first- it will make the rest of it easier!

After the snooze alarm goes off for the fifth time, I shall rise!

I am feeling nostalgic. My son is 24 today. Looking at pictures, thinking about his childhood. Wishing I could go back and be a better mother. More present, less anxious. Firmer sometimes (should have put my foot down when he quit Taekwondo when he was 10.)

Should have ...Sigh. but we can't go back. I love him just the way he is. God blessed my life when he allowed this man to enter my life.

I did not know the true meaning of love before I had children. That sounds sappy. But true. And deeply life transforming.

Speaking of life transforming, nothing will transform here until I get vertical!

Happy Sunday!

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