Year Two, Day 68: Defying Evil

This is one of my Gwynnie Bee blouses. I love this pattern! The bright colors are lifting my spirits.

But I admit I am distraught over the state of this world. All the violence!

I find myself trying to get into the head of the terrorists. I need to stop that.

I keep myself informed and then pray. What else can I do?

I doubt that I will ever understand evil.

Sigh.

I googled terrorism 2016 and found this article: http://www.thewrap.com/major-terrorist-attacks-in-2016-photos/

We are about seven months into 2016 and there have been over 100 "major" terrorist attacks in the world!

I know the dust will settle, my racing heart will slow down to a nice complacent pulse.

Dear Lord! I used the words "Nice" and "Pulse" in the same sentence inadvertently.

Who am I kidding? Me, a middle aged, over sensitive piano teacher. What difference can I make in the face of evil?

All I know is this: I will continue to seek truth and peace and help others whenever possible. It is my calling. And as a Follower of Jesus Christ, it is a commandment I eagerly embrace.

I do believe goodness and love, mercy and justice will prevail. Eventually.

In the meantime I am considering volunteering for Portland's "Neighborhood Emergency Team".

It gives me a bit of peace knowing I can make a small difference in my corner of the world.

http://www.opb.org/news/series/unprepared/in-portland-earthquake-drill-underscores-a-need-for-volunteers/

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