Year Four, Day 155: Jumping for Joy/Dissolving into Tears, But Remaining Keto!

I started this morning bright and early, jumping for joy after I stepped on the scale.

I have lost yet another pound! 5 days on the keto diet = 5 pounds lost!

But I spent most of the morning in tears. I am aching for a family member who received some difficult news. We all hugged and cried. But then we searched for a bright side. And we found it. But the next few years are going to be difficult.

I can't go into detail. But please pray if you are a praying sort.

After my challenging morning with my family member in crisis, one would have expected me to dissolved into a pile of fries, cheeseburger, Diet Coke and chocolate.

I did none of the above! I went to lunch with my family member in crisis and his girlfriend. They had pizza slices. I had a Greek Salad. No noticeable carbs. I added pepperoni slices and a few pistachios.

Greek Salad.

I had an iced tea with a splash of heavy cream and a pump of sugar free vanilla at Starbucks earlier.

I will survive. We all will. And hopefully we will become stronger, but still kind.

I am now heading to the store to by some keto compliant groceries. I intend to start meal prepping for the next day or so, especially now that summer term at the music center is about to start.

I am fully prepared for emotional crisis, at least in the eating department.

I still dissolve into tears when someone I love is hurt. But then I do have God to lean on. And you my reader to vent to.

I wish you a lovely day. And a happy tomorrow!

Talk to you then.

Love,

Zita

Hey, but I did hoop and get in a short workout at the gym today! This is day 91 of daily hooping! :)

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