Year Four, Day 143: Zma's Circle

I am going to be a grandma again! Or shall I say, "I'm going to be a Zma again!?"

That sounds funny. I am a grandma, and I just found out my son and his girlfriend are expecting a baby boy in November! :)

It just occurred to me. I had a girl and then two years later a boy.

Then my daughter had a baby girl and two years later my son is having a baby boy.

The circle of life! I better start knitting some baby hats!

It gets better. I raised my kids alone. My son suffered from having an absent father. And now that he is getting his life together, living clean and sober, working full time, involved with a beautiful, kind woman, he has told me he wants to break the cycle. He wants to be fully involved in his son's life.

How cool is that!?

My heart is swelling with love and pride for my family.

And, despite getting very little sleep last night, I am feeling energetic and clear headed!

Happiness does that to me.

I went from my son and his girlfriend's "gender reveal party" last night straight to choir practice, where I led sectionals alone for two hours!

I am woman, hear me roar!

I was on a baby high! I can't wait to meet this little fella!

We do heal from our past if we allow ourselves!

And now I must high tail it to my next piano student's home.

Happy Wednesday!

Love,

Zita
aka "Zma"

p.s. No QI Gong/Hooping video today. I didn't wake up early enough. (Didn't get home until nearly midnight last night after choir practice!) I plan on hitting the gym on the way home today. Just keeping myself accountable! :)

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