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Year Four, Day 251: Time Change: A Time for Me to Change!

Warmer weather at last! I am feeling better today.  I barely felt the effects of the time change. We set our clocks one hour ahead last night.

Usually, I would be dragging by now. However, I did not have to wake up super early, since I am no longer employed as a church pianist.

Today is my feasting day on my Mt. Athos Monk eating regimen. So I headed out and rewarded myself at Starbucks. They have a new drink: Iced Golden Ginger Drink. It contains turmeric, ginger and coconut milk. It sounded lovely. I make turmeric milk at home when I am having trouble with my asthma.  I asked them if they could make it hot with a bag of black tea. I was craving something warm.  The barista wasn't sure, since it was a new drink. She asked her manager, who told me she preferred it hot as well. And the black tea was a good idea, she told me!

It was lovely. I grabbed my newly created drink and walked across the street to my kids' church, where I was meeting them and my granddaughter.

I am enjoying this church. The music is a country/praise music/gospel blend. The people, very diverse and down to earth. The pastor has a booming voice and likes to preach and teach. He is speaking on Revelation now, which has always been a difficult to book for me (and many others!) to understand.

But today, little puzzle pieces began to click inside my brain. It was fascinating!

Afterwards, I took myself out to a chicken fried steak lunch at a local diner for my feast day treat. I sat, enjoying my lunch, reading and journaling. I felt very peaceful.

I'm now at the library and then heading to the gym. I am watching my granddaughter this evening so her mom and dad can go do a photo shoot job.

Last night, I had a wonderful visit with my son. We played our favorite game: Sequence. We played 6 rounds. He won 4!  His brain has sharpened up now that he is clean and sober, and nicotene free!

He is working out daily with weights, playing basketball, running, working and attending classes. I told him he looks healthier than I've ever seen him. He smiled.

In church today, I was hit with a creative idea.  I loved the music so much, but it is not really difficult. I think I will start my own playlist of my favorite music that I will play on the piano. I want to work out my own arrangements and play by ear and by memory. It would be too easy to just get the sheet music. I am wanting to grow musically.  Plus I want to make each piece my own.

If I do decide to apply for another church job in the future, I will be ready! I met a man in church today who asked me, strangely enough, where I saw myself in 5 years.  It was a funny question, he even seemed surprised he asked it. But before I knew what I was going to say, I told him I was on a quest to find myself musically.

He nodded his head. He is about my age. At this point, we don't need to worry about finding the right career path. Or raising children.  Those eras have past. Perhaps now is the time to really enjoy this life and discover our hidden potential.

On that note, I'm heading to the gym. I ALMOST got up in time to hoop this morning, but not quite. That dang time change!  But I did a mini Qi Gong session at the bus stop.

Hey, it just hit me:  The Time Change is a signal that is time for ME to change!


Happy Sunday!

Love,

Zita








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