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Year Four, Day 269: Pandemic Times, Day 18 - "Stay Home, Stay Safe", Day 6 - Mental Health

Hello!

It is 10:15 pm. How it got so late escapes me. But I am feeling a bit stressed out. I think I will take tonight off from talking about the virus. 

I suddenly just hit a wall. I will leave you with today's walk in the park video and take the night off for some mental health time

I almost exited my cave in search of junk food, so much is my emotional distress. Truth be told, I actually walked into the kitchen, but I am proud to report I said no! I will not break my evening fast out of  weakness!

(Plus, I had just brushed my teeth).

Proud of self! 

But quite tense, anxious and irritable. I think a few episodes of "Mind Your Language" and then bed is in order. It is actually the British comedy my therapist prescribed (instead of Criminal Minds).

Tomorrow I hope to wake up bright and early and take a long walk in the park before my chores and piano students.

We have a video visit scheduled with my son. I am sure missing him!

I am missing a lot of things. But we will get through this. One day at a time.

My scripture passages for today are:

61 "Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer.
From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
For thou hast been a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.
I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings."

Joel 2:12-17 New King James Version (NKJV)

A Call to Repentance

12 “Now, therefore,” says the Lord,
“Turn to Me with all your heart,
With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.”
13 So rend your heart, and not your garments;
Return to the Lord your God,
For He is gracious and merciful,
Slow to anger, and of great kindness;
And He relents from doing harm.
14 Who knows if He will turn and relent,
And leave a blessing behind Him—
A grain offering and a drink offering
For the Lord your God?

15 Blow the [a]trumpet in Zion,
Consecrate a fast,
Call a sacred assembly;
16 Gather the people,
Sanctify the congregation,
Assemble the elders,
Gather the children and nursing babes;
Let the bridegroom go out from his chamber,
And the bride from her dressing room.
17 Let the priests, who minister to the Lord,
Weep between the porch and the altar;
Let them say, “Spare Your people, O Lord,
And do not give Your heritage to reproach,
That the nations should [b]rule over them.
Why should they say among the peoples,
‘Where is their God?’ ”

Luke 13:1-5 New King James Version (NKJV)

Repent or Perish

13 There were present at that season some who told Him about the Galileans whose blood Pilate had [a]mingled with their sacrifices. And Jesus answered and said to them, “Do you suppose that these Galileans were worse sinners than all other Galileans, because they suffered such things? I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish. Or those eighteen on whom the tower in Siloam fell and killed them, do you think that they were worse sinners than all other men who dwelt in Jerusalem? I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish.”

These are the readings in my daily Bible study. I am not suggesting God us punishing us with this virus. But personally, I have slipped a bit in my walk. And today, I am feeling the need to turn to God for comfort. I know things will be ok. But I need to maintain a positive, attitude of strength and hope for the coming months. 

Descending into a pit of woe does not help anyone! 

I will talk to you tomorrow. I am going to be praying harder for all who are suffering, for you, for me, and for the whole world - will you join me?

Talk to you tomorrow.

I send blessings of healing, hope and deep peace.

Love,

Zita



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