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Day 3: Can you say "Aaarrrrrgggh...?"


 I could, if I could move my mouth! (Or any body part for that matter.)

I am in pain.

Whole body pain. 

My feet, my legs, my back, my neck, my arms, my face.

I hit the snooze alarm several times this morning.  Too sore to move.

I tell myself, "I don't have students until this afternoon.  Sleeping in might help."

Well, yes, it might help to sleep off the pain. But I want to shake off these old ways.  Work through the pain! Plus, I have to do laundry. I have a pot of beans to cook. I have a 5K to train for!

I am not a morning person. I never have been.  I have a love-hate relationship with my alarm clock. But lately if I hit the snooze and go back to sleep, I have creepy dreams and then wake up grumpy and with mega brain fog!

Time goes by whether I make changes or not. And at 53, I really don't have any time to waste. Do any of us really know how much time we have left on the clock of life? I think I need this clock:


I grabbed my Kindle, which I keep near my bed for these kind of mornings (which end up being most mornings!)  Something about checking my email, my bank account, the news, Facebook...this gets my mind moving, which in turn gets the adrenaline flowing and suddenly - I AM AWAKE! :)

But this morning, I turned to my devotional first. I wanted inspiration. I also want to change. To get out of bed on a positive note.

I like "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. I scrolled over to May 14th.  And I am inspired. These are the first few sentences:

 "I AM A MIGHTY GOD. Nothing is too difficult for Me. I have chosen to use weak ones like you to accomplish My purposes. Your weakness is designed to open up up to My Power. Therefore, do not fear your limitations or measure the day's demands against your strength. What I require of you is to stay connected to Me, living in trusting dependence on My limitless resources."  ~Jesus Calling. Enjoying Peace in His Presence, Sarah Young

 She also quotes 2 Corinthians 12:9 which I am using as one of quotes for today.  And I am cranking up the music and getting ready for my run!


PS. I weigh myself daily, but I think I"ll post my weight once a week. Perhaps on Sunday.

Happy Thursday!

Peace and Arrrggg...I mean Joy!

Zita :)


 "9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." ~2 Corinthians 12:9-10



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