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Day 246: Finding My Soul

The sky is the most lovely shade of blue this Sunday morning. Cold and crisp, bare trees, a slight breeze. But sunny and bright!

I am feeling very tired, but serene. I had a performance Friday night and a rehearsal last night. In addition, winter term began.  Private students and group students.  Not to mention aging parents.  My mother came to her piano lesson yesterday. She brought my dad along. She is looking very chipper and bright. He looks like he has aged 20 years.  He sat in a wheelchair while she had her lesson. I brought him some tea and some books to read.  A few minutes into our lesson, I glanced over and he had nodded off.  It made me feel very sad.

After her lesson, my mom and chatted a bit. I told her about the movie "Geronimo" I had watched the other night. I had actually borrowed the movie from them.  I told my mom Matt Damon was one of the actos. At that, my dad suddenly chimed in:  "And Jason Patric and Gene Hackman."

My mom looked at my knowingly.

"He remembers everything", she said, smiling.

Obviously his mind is still sharp. Thank you God.  I talked to them about daily exercise.  My mother is worried about him falling again. But he can walk. My brother stopped by and brought him a very swank looking walking stick.

We also talked about other ways to improve his life. I told them that to have a balanced life you need to exercise all facets of life daily:

Physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, social.

I suggested they find a senior center in Vancouver. They could have lunch and then visit, take a class or play games with the other seniors. All buildings are accessible these days, or should be, by law. But senior centers are especially aware of people with decreased mobility.

But my mother would have nothing to do with this suggestion.

"Oh, Zita", she sighed. "We don't want to be around all those OLD people."   LOL

Gotta love her spirit!


Speaking of spirit, I am taking a partial day off. I feel the need to get reacquainted with my soul. I have one student. Then I am taking myself to the gym and out to lunch.  Then I will come home and hang out with some young people and prepare for me week.

Oh, I almost forgot. I finally got past that pound I have been gaining and losing over the past month.

I am now 187! :)


Happy Sunday!

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