Day 251: Sheep May Safely Graze

I am back to going through the Classic FM Hall of Fame for 2015. Afterall, they will be voting on the 2016 hall of fame soon! I believe I played this one before: "Cantata BWV 208 'Was mir behagt' (includes 'Sheep may Safely Graze') by Johann Sebastian Bach. It came in at number 258 out of the top 300 for 2015. http://halloffame.classicfm.com/2015/chart/position/258/

I got a wonderful stretching session in with this music in the background. I am feeling somewhat nostalgic. Trying not to get trapped in the looking back mindset. But today it is bringing me peace. I am just rereading my posts for the past 251 days.

I will be heading to the trail for a walk this morning. The weather is dry and not too cold. I have been so stiff and sore and tired lately, that forcing myself up early for Mass and the gym is counterproductive at this point. I almost nod off in Mass, then need a cup of coffee or tea afterwards to perk myself up. I often eat out, which is not so bad now that I am making wiser food choices, but still I could do better at home. Not to mentioned eating at home saves money.

So I am back to rising early, catching up on the news, Facebook and email while still horizontal. Then dozing for a early morning nap. Finally arising. I drink a glass of warm lemon water, practice piano, stretch and then head to the trail.

After that, I shower, eat and pack a meal. Then head out to teach students. Not a bad schedule really. But I feel like the morning hours are wasted. However, my body and mind are telling me lately that I need more rest.

So I will take it! After the trail today I plan on coming back and doing some journaling and prayer. That should get me back on path. The struggles I have with getting going in the morning seem to be connected with my emotional state. Worry, stress, fear, depression. They do zap my strength.

I also think I need to do some stretching and music therapy before I go to sleep at night. I do think I am taking my tension to bed with me. I have vivid, strange, intense dreams. Perhaps they are wearing me out too!

Good. A plan. I do like a plan!

Off to the trail, am I.

Happy Friday! :)

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