Day 254: Step Away from the Facebook! ("Oh look, Dryococelus australis!")

Dryococelus australis

I need to get into the gym today. The last few days I have stretched and walked. But I need a good sweat producing workout. I am feeling rather on edge. Need to stay focused on reality. Lately I use Facebook as a way to wakeup. It gets my adrenaline flowing. There seems to be a predictable flow of thoughts and emotions. Here's a random glimpse inside my brain:

Another day. I should get out of bed and get moving
But, I am still so tired, achy, stiff and sore.
I wonder what people are saying on Facebook?
Oh, what a cute animal video, must share! :)
Very deep quote from Martin Luther King Jr. Today we honor his birthday. Must share! Oh, but in the comments, some say this quote is from Jesus. Should I share? Well MLK was a preacher. And I like the picture. I will share. It is my wall, after all!
Democratic debate last night. Watch YouTube highlights. Leaning towards Bernie.
Read comments. Start to research candidates claims. Start to realize I am wasting time. I don't have enough background to post political opinions. Plus there is always the backlash from other Facebook users when I naively post about hot topics. Like gun control. Arrgh. Be careful.
Start to question my beliefs and why I care so much about scathing comments.
Now am getting mad at myself for laying in bed worrying about truth, ego, politics, war, hunger, poverty, injustice and a nearly extinct insect on a remote island* when I have housework, exercise, piano practice, prayer and cooking to do!
Blasted procrastination!
Log out of Facebook. Get this day started!
Ummm... right after I post this morning's blog! ;)

Happy Monday!

*http://theconversation.com/australian-endangered-species-lord-howe-island-stick-insect-11789

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