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Year Three, Day 57: NO MERCY, B.F.!

Today is day 23 of daily hooping. I did a rush job of recording because I was running late to meet my mom for breakfast. So today is a short video. In the backyard. I think I will hoop at the track from now on. A little more space there.


I had another sleepless night. Tossed and turned! Turned and tossed!

I made the mistake of reserving a movie from the library solely based on the  actor listed. Rupert Friend. Who I fell for in Homeland.

I really miss Homeland! I feel like I personally know the characters. Rupert Friend played Peter Quinn. One of my favorites.

But not so much in the movie "Hitman", which played like an action video game.

Most annoying.

Oh! I just read that the movie was based on the Hit-man games. That explains a lot. It wasn't horrible. But it did not hold a candle to Homeland.

Sigh.


I did a lot of soul searching as  I tossed and turned. And also while I turned and tossed!

Then I gave up trying to find a position where sleep would find me.

And I updated my profile on a free online dating site.

Yes, back to the fishing pond. But no great expectations. It is just nice to have a man in my pocket who I can text on a lonely, sleepless night.

One thing I did come away with after all that tossing, turning and soul searching is this: I NEED TO KICK THIS BELLY FAT IN THE BUTT!

Sick of it, I am! And most impatient I have become.

Watch out B.F.!!I am not going to show you any more mercy!

Dinner is a turkey burger on  a GF bun , side salad with balsamic vinegraite, and unsweetened iced tea. At Burgerville. No fries!! It is 7:15 p.m. no more food until tomorrow.



After I post this blog, I am going to the gym.

The time has come.

NO MERCY!!

Oh, and happy Saturday!

Talk to you tomorrow.

Love, peace and pure determination,

Zita






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