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Year Two: Day 2, Reinstating of "The Rule"

I am going to focus on fruits and vegetables today. I ate entirely too much yesterday. I started out well. Almost finished well. Was actually telling myself on the bus ride home, that I needed to resurrect the no food after 7:00 p.m. rule again from last year. It was a good rule. I think I will bring it back, with the understanding that with my schedule, sometimes a small, late night dinner without guilt is allowed!

But last night I was blindsided. I opened the door to my son with his best friend and girlfriend. Really sweet kids. They were watching the Blazers, who at that moment had a ten point lead on the Warriors.

I had planned on grabbing a large glass of water and heading to my room for a bit of piano practice and bedtime with book.

But instead watched the game. My son's friends brought the fixings for tacos and rice. I had a bowl of rice, topped with taco meat and guacamole.

 It was an intense, close game. It was a blast to hoot and holler and yell at Curry when he led his team to crush us in overtime. I consoled myself with a chocolate. They had brought me a box as a Mother's Day gift.

But, hey, I only ate one! And it was a stressful game!!

 I do not regret it. I spend way too much time alone.

So I will just have a cleansing food day today.

And reinstate the "no food after 7:00 p.m. law.

On that note, time to practice.

I think I will take a walk today before I teach. The weather is too go r gorgeous for words!!

I leave you with these passages from my psalm of the day, Psalm 36:

Your love, Lord, reaches to the heavens,
    your faithfulness to the skies.
Your righteousness is like the highest mountains,
    your justice like the great deep.
    You, Lord, preserve both people and animals.
How priceless is your unfailing love, O God!
    People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.
They feast on the abundance of your house;
    you give them drink from your river of delights.
For with you is the fountain of life;
    in your light we see light.

I plan on writing these words on an index card and packing it with me to glance at when the urge to binge strikes!

Happy Tuesday!


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