Year Two, Day 239: All in All It's Just Another Bump in the Road...

Well my reality changed in a moment. Remind me not to say I am feeling content and well balanced.  My son would say I "jinxed" myself. 

My daughter and son-in-law informed me last night that our landlord is selling the house we are renting. We need to vacate the premises by March 1st.

They are planning on purchasing a home in Vancouver, WA near their church.

Booting the mama out, they are.  Well in the most kind and gentle manner.  They do deserve a life of their own. Although, I dare say they will miss my kitchen skills! :)

I will be seeking a modest, inexpensive (inexpensive apartment in Portland, Oregon. Can you say oxymoron?)

I believe I will be renting a place with my son, if all goes as planned. I certainly cannot afford a place on my own, unless I want to get two more jobs!

Right now, I am seeking one part time job. I applied for a church secretary job with just the right hours. Not the best pay, but it sounds like something I would enjoy.

Ideally, I am hoping to find a church pianist job. But these seem to be few and far between.  

If you are a praying person, would you pray for our family? I realize I am not prepared for this.  As a musician and piano teacher, and worried mom, I have spent most of the last 26 years in survival mode.

I am still thinking that living in a camper van sounds like the ticket. But my son is just getting back on his feet and not sure he is ready to fly solo quite yet.


I am also considering doing a piano concert fundraiser. I did that several years ago to help fund my move to Salem when my daughter was getting married.

I am feeling a little overwhelmed right now.  I am going to take a prayer break.  Be back hopefully with a calmer state of mind....


Ok.  I feel better. I wrote in my prayer journal, read my Bible and did my daily reading and exercise in the "Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius".

I am glad I did. Today's scripture is Matthew 16: 24-26. 

^24" Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. ²⁵ For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. ²⁶ For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?"

Matthew 16:24-26  (NKJV)

 I needed that.  To put my priorities in place.  This is just another bump in the road.  I have my family, my health, my job and God.  

Deep breath...

I realize I sometimes fall into the category of a "fair weather Christian". It is so easy to praise God when things are going well. I also, am the panic stricken "HELP ME" type of Christian. You, know when I feel like I am sinking into the abyss I cry out. Then He always comes through. I thank Him, but then unfortunately go back to my somewhat self centered life shortly after.

 

This current development is not going to be a quick fix. It will require much patience and life style changes.

 But...

I shall survive! I've come through much worse.

And, when the going gets tough, the tough make casseroles! Today's is a tater tot casserole.

I feel better already!

I will do my best to continue this blog. After all, it is my life boat!

Happy Thursday!