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Year Two, Day 262: Gentleness

I had to edit my life timer yesterday. And it did challenge my resolve to focus on goodness.  Every time the timer went off I cursed at it. Not good.

So, I reassessed. I needed more time. So I cut my gym workout.  Aaack! I could visualize my body ballooning up to what it used to be. Before I prioritized exercise. Back when I ate solely for pleasure and comfort. When I was under much stress and food was my friend.

But those days are long gone!

I needed to finish the laundry. I needed an extra 30 minutes. So I adjusted my timer.

I put in 20 minutes of piano practice. And I put the gym at the end of the day. I told myself if 7:00 p.m. came and gym was out of the question, for whatever reason, I would just walk briskly and stretch when I got home.

On a positive note, since I tracked my time yesterday, I ended up with a bit of extra time before I was due at the music center. It was a lovely day. I decided to sit outside at the neighborhood Starbucks and enjoy some quiet, peaceful time. I was thrilled to see I had earned a free drink on my Starbucks card. So I went all out! To the tune of a Venti Smoked Butterscotch Latte with Coconut Milk!

Fast forward to 7:00 p.m.:  There I was, leaving the music center, feeling clear-headed. It was a brisk January evening. Cold, but dry. No wind.

I considered my options. If I headed home, I would probably eat and then get ready for bed. And lay there feeling guilty. About not making it to the gym. Yet again.

So I just high-tailed it up to the gym!

And I lived to blog about it! It was not a long workout. Just elliptical and stretching. But I got there. That is always the hardest step.

Today is a very busy day. It is 5:56 a.m. I just input all my tasks on my life timer. In four minutes the first and most important alarm will go off. The "get out of bed" alarm.

I'm going to get out on the right side of the bed this morning.

My fruit of the spirit today is "gentleness". This is perfect.

Today I will be gentle with myself.

Happy Saturday!

Peace, Love and Joy,

Zita 😉
Venti Smoked Butterscotch Latte with Coconut Milk 😉

A beautiful sunny, peaceful visit to the neughborhood Starbucks

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