Year Two, Day 264: Self Control and "War Dogs" with My Son

Finally, a good night's sleep! I was tempted to go straight to bed last night after my rather off day yesterday. But my son called and asked me to stop and pick up a Red Box movie for us to watch. I decided I needed some good quality time with my man child. We watched "War Dogs". Good choice. Based on a true story, so it made for good conversation. There were some action moments, suspense moments and silly monents. I left my cell phone in my room. Good life moment with the man child. I feel my attitude is sufficiently adjusted to face my day.

I have been walking a lot lately. It feels wonderful. I've been wearing my running shoes nearly everywhere. I've been swinging my arms and lengthening my stride. But I need to get more gym time. I originally started this blog to get healthy by exercising everyday, and lose weight with healthier eating. I've come a long way, but I'm feeling stressed out again. This impending move for one. Finances. The state of our nation. Our world. Worries about my aging parents. My adult children.

I am starting to hyperventilate. I will stop now.

But a good workout will help with the stress and with the "D" word. I know this from experience. And all the expert advice.

So I am going to have to just fit it in my day. I've slept enough during the snow, during my back injury, during my flu, during my bout with the "D" word. Time to kick some bootie!

I've been focusing on having enough energy for extra work. Much needed extra work for extra money to save up for a big whopping deposit and first and last's months rent on a small, overpriced apartment here in my home city Portland. If I didn't have family, friends, and stellar students, I would consider moving back down to Salem where it is quiet and the rent is about half the cost.

But it is what it is!

Tomorrow I will only 100 days away from two years of daily blogging. Time to reassess and make some new goals.

I am tired of hauling around this extra weight. I am giving it notice!

Today I am focusing on self-control, the ninth and final "fruit of the spirit". Well, isn't that appropriate?

And now it is time to put on my running shoes and hit this day!

Happy Monday!

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