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Day 116: Waiting to Exhale

I had a funny moment at the gym yesterday.  I stepped on the scale. One of those old school scales you used to find in doctor's offices before the whole world went digital.  I have this feeling they are pretty accurate. So I took off my shoes and stepped on. The little markers (not sure what to call those thingamabobs) were at "zero".  So I slide one over to 200 lbs.  I stared at it a moment not comprehending.  Because the scale thingie tipped all the way to the right.

Then I realized that I am now under 200 lbs! So I set the marker at 150 and added weight in increments until I got to my current weight today which is 195.

Something about sliding that marker made it more real then staring at a digital number. Just saying.

I went to my foot massage guy today. It just seemed like a good day to do that after a good workout. While I was walking up to see him, my daughter called. One of the most thrilling conversations ever.  She had recommended a book to read on Kindle. Her husband won a Kindle reader at his work, but never used it. She finally has Kindle fever.  She was thrilled that I actually read it. She finished it today and we had a BOOK DISCUSSION. My daughter and I talked about a book we read. I wanted to a happy dance right there! She was calling to ask my advice on the next book.

One of the happiest days in my life. Kids. They are so precious and innocent from the beginning. They steal your heart. Then they grow up and away.  It is inevitable that they be their own people. But when they come back as an adult and want your opinion or want to share an interest with you unexpectantly, it does make one glow!

Last week it was my son admitting that he liked Mozart.

I remember a movie I watched years ago.  It was on Christmas Day. I was alone. The kids were each with their fathers.  It was called "Waiting to Exhale". Whitney Houston and Angela Bassett were two of the actresses.  I remember crying for most of the movie.  Most of my life I have felt like I am waiting for something.

And I do believe it is these little moments of joy. 

Today is another relished day off with no specific obligations.  Other than my own self improvement of course! So I had my glass of water. Will now drink tea, study bible and then hop bus to the gym. Today I will focus on chest/triceps/abs and do some cardio.  I am not walking the trail this morning. My feet are sore and I am hungry.  I would like to do a walk this afternoon.

After the gym, I will stop at the grocery store for some chicken.  I'm going to do some meal prep this afternoon. I have one rehearsal tomorrow and one family of piano students. Friday I have a bible study and one student. Then Saturday is the official first day of fall term for my piano students and I will be flying like the wind! Luckily the music center classes do not start until October, so I will have a bit of breathing room until then.

Such is my life!  But I feel like I am finally learn to prepare for the storm!

Happy Wednesday!

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