|A rainy Portland morning in the SE Hawthorne neighborhood. Photo by Zita :)|
Yesterday was a low day for me. Low spirits. Low energy.
I am feeling better today. Had much food for thought! And much sleeping in!
I hung out with my daughter after I got home from rehearsal last night. We watched an episode of Outlander. I bought the entire First Season. I am so hooked! Not to give the plot away, but the main character is a nurse during World War II. She and her husband are celebrating after the end of the war in Scotland in 1945. She is suddenly (I won't tell you how!) whisked back into time into the 1700's and becomes entangled with a Scottish clan.
I'm so excited to get my daughter in on my addiction. It's more fun when shared! :)
So about yesterday. I had a long, weary day. Felt pretty low. I must confess, that after a long day of teaching and rehearsals (my chamber group has it's season opening concert next weekend), I gave in and went out to eat. I was going to go to a food cart that has pretty healthy and very yummy Mexican around the corner from the church where I teach.
But it was cold. I wanted to sit and read. My second choice was Taco Time because they have a fresh salsa bar. But their doors were locked at 8:45 p.m.!
So I slunk across the street to Taco Bell. I ate as healthy as possible. But I didn't feel good about it. This morning I woke up feeling hung over, but a bit happier. I let myself sleep in. I am going for a walk soon.
It helped to have bonding time with my daughter. She is talking about a new hairstyle. So I downloaded a complete makeover app and we had a hoot playing with different hairstyles. Long after the episode of Outlander was over and she went to bed, I stayed up playing with hairstyles. Way too long! But it was fun.
Here is what I came up with:
LOL! I was almost convinced this morning that I need a new hairstyle, color and lots of makeup and bling. I cheered up for a moment.
Then I thought about it. I paused and breathed. Perhaps that is where I am misled. Our whole world is misled. Materialism rules. We are bombarded with messages that we need more, bigger, better, stronger! Often we think (and this has historically been a female issue, but I am seeing it more and more for all genders)in order to "fix" our life we need an exterior makeover.
But perhaps what I really need is a complete interior makeover.
I am going to take a long walk today and pray and think about this.
In the meantime, I leave you with this poem that I stumbled across this morning.
Stand still. The trees ahead and bushes beside you
Are not lost. Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes. Listen. It answers,
I have made this place around you.
If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree of a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost. Stand still. The forest know
Where you are. You must let it find you.