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Day 117: Putting God in the Heading

Yesterday I cooked up a storm!

I made prepackaged meals for the next 5 days.  Sauteed chicken breasts (with my own concoction of spices, including nutritional yeast, yum!), squash and broccoli. I also made a garbanzo bean curry in the crockpot. It had a nice spicy kick to it. (Garlic, ginger and jalapeno)

But wait! There's more ! My daughter and son-in-law were raving about my homemade protein bars. They took some with them on their last hunting trip. They went out again this morning, so last night I made up another batch: Almond flour, flax seed meal, walnuts, applesauce, pumpkin puree, raisins, coconut, eggs, and protein powder.  They are seriously addicting!

This morning, I woke up before my son even. 5:00 a.m.!  I was wide awake. So I made him some coffee, packed him a lunch, let the dog out and got to work on something I've been meaning to try.  Woven bacon! I saw it on youtube. You weave bacon strips together like a basket and then bake.  I used turkey bacon. It didn't quite stick together like on the video. I probably need to use "real" bacon next time. But I scrambled some eggs, and made some hashbrowns with garlic and put that on top of the bacon and rolled it up and then broiled it a bit. 

At this point, I was feeling groggy, so I went back and lay down. I was still not buying the sleep thing. So I finished the last book by Liane Moriarity ("What Alice Forgot").  It was fun, but not nearly as deep and profound as the first one ("The Husband's Secret").

Now I am finally up to face the day. I ate the whole frikkin bacon log!  And a cup of coffee. I was really hungry. 

But I took my measurements and I  have lost an inch in my waist.

Ok and embarrassingly enough, I have never properly learned how to size a bra.  I guess I've been just lucky over the years.  But things have not felt right since I've been losing weight. Especially, eh hem, there.  So I did some research. And I am off to purchase new ladies foundations today!  Too much information. I know.  But it is a revelation!

Since I am discussing my personal life, I have another revelation. Since I have been losing weight and feeling better, I have noticed something missing in my life.  Companionship. Especially of the male gender.

So, a few months ago I put an ad up on Craigslist!  I put it in the platonic section.

I've been told I write well.  But I tried to be as honest as possible. No false advertising for this woman! 

Well! I got hundreds of responses! I was completely overwhelmed. I didn't answer any of them. I took down the ad.

Last week, I thought I might try again. And be even more forthright. So in the heading of the ad, I inserted the word "God". After all He and I have gotten very close lately.

And it worked! I only got maybe 20 this time. All very interesting, mature men. Ok, a few young, silly ones. That's what the delete button is for!

I put stars on my favorites. People I think I could really talk to. Maybe even be friends with. That narrowed it down to about 9.

Out of those, one stood out.  He and I are going to meet this weekend.

He loves the Grotto. He asked if we could meet there. 

My favorite place in Portland!

But it is just a meeting.  We may find each other annoying and hideous.

But seriously. This is the first outing (not saying "date) with a man that I will be taking in many, many, moons. I seriously can't remember the last time.

I think perhaps that is why I gained so much weight. As a protection.  I have a sordid past.  Not proud of it. I wish I knew that God was with me, even back then.  But I was very shallow. Inauthentic.  What was I thinking?

But here I am now.  Still alive. 

And I am going to the Grotto with a nice gentleman. 

This makes me smile.

Happy Thursday!

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