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Year Two, Day 319: More Light, Less Dark

Going to the doctor tomorrow.  My cough is gone, but I woke up with a snuffy nose again this morning.  Most annoying!

I have had a history of hay fever.  But over the years it diminished. Only to come back with a vengeance this year!

Nothing over the counter really works. My brother, who is a pharmacist told me years ago that he takes a low dose pseudoephidrine daily for his hay fever. So I did that for many years. Until pseudoephedrine was banned for over the counter sales in Oregon. It turned out that it was used to manufacture meth.

One of the church members came into the office this morning and heard me sniffling and snorting. He told  me he took prescription Sudafed for his allergies and it worked like a dream.

So off to the doctor I shall go!  I am tired of suffering. And I'm sure people are sick of hearing me snort!

I finished the novel, The Thirteenth Tale by Dianne Setterfield last night. Wikipedia describes it as a "Gothic suspense novel".

It was a good read. I was into it. But it was rather dark. And I woke up feeling quite anxious this morning.

Perhaps I should read something gentler before bed.  I thought about reading  my Thomas Keating book, but I consider that a "study book".  Thankfully, I had picked up another free loaner book from one of the neighborhood "Little Free Libraries" last week. It's called The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency, by Alexander McCall Smith.  I am thrilled to discover this is the first novel in a series and that it is also a tv series produced by BBC and HBO!



I am going right over to the Multnomah County library site after I am done blogging to see if I can reserve more books and perhaps a DVD!

I do need to be careful what I let into my  mind.  More light, less dark.  Must overcome, lest I sink into the quicksand of depression again!

I did manage to do my morning exercise today.  Worked in the church office. After I visit the library website, I am going to practice piano and then meet my daughter for lunch. We are both craving pho.

Perhaps I should say I am meeting my daughter 'pho' lunch? Bwaa hahaha!

Good to know I still have my sense of humor!

Today's fruit of the spirit (from Galatians 5:22-23) is "patience". Lord knows I need an extra dose of this, just dealing with myself!

Talk to you tomorrow... hopefully without my snuffle!

Happy Monday!

Z


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