This is a picture of the pizza I ate last night. At Cascades Station on the way to my daughter and son-in-law's house to visit Baby Grace. "By Design Pizza". You create your own pizza. Kind of like Subway. I had a gluten free crust. And many veggies.
But I ATE THE WHOLE THING!
Hanging my head in shame am I!
Time to regroup!
I think with all the change in my life recently, I have given myself unspoken permission to overeat again. I aim to be as transparent as possible in the blog without entering the realm of TMI.
But I have fallen off the wagon. I have been eating most of my meals in restaurants. I have broken my no food after 7:00 p.m. rule. I have been eating junk food.
No more!
Especially after viewing today's hoop video. My face is most poofy!
Granted, it was quite cold and wet outside my daughter and son-in-law's trailer this morning. And Baby Gracie had a most fussy night, waking up to howl like a hungry animal about every hour on the hour! She was quite charming this morning, which made up for last night. She has been having more awake, interactive time.
But she still is a feeding fiend!
So my daughter and I both have poofy faces. And I had to hoop in a very confined space - the awning outside her trailer.
But still! Part of my goal in daily blogging is personal growth and improvement. One issue is losing weight and getting healthier.
My cough has returned. I am bone tired. My neck and back hurt. And my face is poofy!
Enough is enough - time to get tough!
Self discipline is something I struggle with. But I always come back to.
So after my evening and morning with my daughter and Baby Gracie, instead of heading out to eat lunch to "reward" myself for surviving a sleepless night, I stopped at Trader Joe's. I had a small cup of their complimentary coffee instead of stopping at Starbucks. And I bought a tub of sliced jicama, a container of yummy egg white salad, and a green banana. Then I headed to my first students of the afternoon. Good thing I have decided to rein myself in, because this family is usually two boys, but they are missing the next two weeks due to a conflict with an after school class. That seriously bit a whole in my budget!
I just taught one boy today, and with my extra time, I stopped at Fred Meyer's and got a small container of hummus to dip my jicama sticks in. I sat and ate my lunch and was quite pleased with myself!
Now I am at my home away from home - the public library.
I feel better about myself knowing I have a plan. The plan is stop being so hedonistic! To start packing lunch or at least stopping at Trader Joe's or Fred Meyer's and picking up something wholesome rather than "reward myself" with restaurant dining. That has become one of my daily pleasures. Stopping at one of my regular haunts, and having a meal while I read.
I think I can still continue to live my life, but on a much more reasonable scale.
Anyway, thank you for listening to rant and rave. At least I am complaining about myself instead of someone else! I have never been fond of gossip, and I try to not indulge if at all possible.
And I do have a bad habit of berating myself. But this I deserve!
And I deserve a better life. Moderation is the key. I have been working on that my whole life. I tend to be way up and way down. Middle is hard for me. I used to consider middle boring. But in my advancing age, I am learning to appreciate the middle as absence of stress and drama!
And now, looking at the clock, I am going to be a good piano teacher and sign off so I can get to my next student's house on time. Without stopping at the store for a snack!
On that note, I wish you a happy Thursday!
Talk to you tomorrow.
I intend to behave myself!
Love,
Zita
PS Here is today's hooping video, poofy face and all! It is day 117 of my daily hooping adventure!
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