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Year Three, Day 297: Don't Think About It - Just Eat!

I am starting to feel gluten brain fog. And a bit of gluten blues. I wasn't too aware until my daughter called my attention to it.

The Schnood and I had a wonderful visit this morning while her mom got some computer work done. The weather is simply glorious today! So my daughter and I decided upon IKEA for lunch and a walk afterwards.

I had the salmon salad. I should have skipped the flatbread. But I didn't. Shortly after eating, my daughter looked up at me and said, "You're crashing."



"I feel like laying down on the floor", I muttered.

"I can always tell", she said with a knowing to be in her voice. And a trace of a smirk.

We know each other too well.

I explained to her I was in Words with Friends withdrawals. And I had been seeking comfort. Of the edible kind.

I asked her how her weight loss was going. She said she was down a few pounds. But could still stand to lose 10 more.

I sighed. "I'm up a few pounds. Could stand to lose at least 40 pounds".

"How do you do it?" I asked my picture if health, 27 year-old daughter with a baby in a stroller.

"I'm not like you, Mom", she said. Again, that knowing tone. "You think about food when you are not eating. You analyze it while you are eating. And then you regret what you are. I, on the other hand, just eat. Stop thinking about it!" She smiled, and took a bite out of a piece of cake. She offered me a bite. I hesitated. Then I took a bite. I thought about the combination of flavors: chocolate, coconut, butter, sugar. It was divine!

Later, I regretted it. Later, when I wanted to lay down on the floor and pass out.

My daughter does know me.

On our walk around Cascade Station, I told her that I think I had really sabotaged my diet since I uninstalled Words with Friends. I told her it was like the end of a relationship.

I also expressed my frustration with the lack of storage on my phone. She raised an eyebrow at me.

"Here, push the baby", she said.

And about 10 minutes later I had ample storage!

"You can put Words with Friends back on your phone!" She said with a smile.

I love this woman.

So, after all this pain, I have reinstalled Words with Friends. But I have made a deal with myself. It goes way back to when I was raising my children.  My motto is "First you work, then you play".

So I am only allowed to play a few games of Words with Friends after all my work is done.  Waiting for the bus is allowed as long as I am being aware of my surroundings.

Awareness is key.  I need to also be more aware of my eating yet again.

Especially since my daughter and I have restarted our weight loss competition. The first one to lose 10 pounds owes the other person a one hour massage and a healthy lunch.

I think this last week has proved to me that I need to stay away from gluten. Sigh.  I probably should go back to a low carb diet with lean protein and lots of veggies. And minimal sugar.

My daughter reminded me how good I felt last summer when I was sticking to my diet and had just started hooping daily.

One step forward, two steps back.  That is the dance of my life!

But now, I do need to grab something healthy and head to choir practice.

I wish you a lovely evening. Enjoy the sunshine!

Talk to you tomorrow.

Love,

Zita


P.S. Here is today's hooping video.  I do seem to be extra poofy today!Today is day 256.


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