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Year Three, Day 306: My State of Mind

I am still sick.

But a little better than yesterday. I actually took the train and bus over to Vancouver to see my daughter and granddaughter. My daughter said she wasn't worried about me being contagious. Baby Gracie has a strong immune system since she is breastfeeding, and well...I have been coughing off an on for over a year!

So I dragged myself out of bed and sat shivering on the bus to Cascade Station. I actually ordered a Lyft ride. I was too weak to withstand the long bus ride.

It was rejuvenating to spend time with my daughter and granddaughter. My mother even popped in for a visit!

It was a short visit. I canceled my piano lessons and headed over the bridge to Clackamas Town Center after lunch. And had a most amazing, deep massage.  It was only 30 minutes. I could have used 3 hours!

It helped. And I am drinking much water.

I noticed though, that when I'm sick, my mental health gets wacky. I think dark, negative thoughts, mostly about myself.

It is for this reason, I am completely taking this day off.  After I finish this blog, I am going to grab a Citrus Defender at Starbucks and head home. To bed.

I was thinking about Stephen Hawking today.  He really defied the odds. He was diagnosed with ALS when he was 21,  and was only expected to live a few years.  He died a few days ago at 76.

I was thinking about him because his life work centered around the beginning of the universe.  He described himself as an atheist.  I wonder if he's changed his mind now? And the interviews with him have been remarkable. He was so limited in his physical body, but not his mind. However, he had a sense of humor and did not seem to complain about his condition.

If only I could be so strong!

On that note, I am going to take my whiny butt home and get some good sleep. That is the best attitude adjustment I know of!

No hooping video today. My whole body is in pain, including my skin!  I can't imagine a weighted hoop hitting my body right now.

Talk to you tomorrow - hopefully in a better state of mind!

Love,

Zita

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