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Day 89: On My Own!

I woke up early this morning. 5:00 a.m.!  My daughter, her husband and my son had  to catch an 8:00 a.m. flight to Las Vegas.  They've been working hard and saving up for this vacation for several months now.  After I dropped them off, I said a prayer.  For safe travels and a fun, but safe trip.  Whoever said parenting gets easier as your kids got older was full of it!

Not only am I worried about the grown adult children, I am worried about myself. Alone with my disobedient eating habits for four whole days!  I must say, aside from this daily blog, living with people who know my eating and exercise routine does tend to make one accountable!

Now it is just Honey, the American Pointer dog and I.  Honey probably wouldn't tell on me if I cheated!  But I have made a pact with myself and my creator to be as honest and transparent as possible. Otherwise what is the point?

Perhaps I should run for President! lol. NOT!

So, today was hard.  I wanted to pull into the closest McDonald's and have an Egg McMuffin, hash browns, orange juice and coffee whilst checking my emails and Facebook.  But the rational me took over. I headed to Fred Meyer's and bought a couple of potatoes, some grapefruit juice to add to the eggs and turkey bacon at home for breakfast. And my new prize possession - A sturdy backpack!

Yesterday, I shared with my friend at rehearsal my woes.  I am tired. I am sore. My whole body hurts. And she said, "No wonder. Look at those big bags of books you carry around!"

She suggested that I get a good backpack to balance out my load.  And she was right.  On the days I walk the trail, I just tuck my keys and cell phone in my fanny pack and off I go. I feel light and free as a bird!

But I the rest of the day I ride the bus and walk to my students' houses and to the music center and to the church. Loaded up like a pack mule.  I have music binders for each group I accompany.  Music that I am practicing for my concert. And music for my students. And what kind of piano teacher would I be without stickers for my students?!  No wonder I am so sore and tired. Walking around like the Hunchback of Notre Dame in scorching heat!

So today I packed up my backpack and headed to teach. I had both arms free.  I hardly felt the weight. Sometimes I am a bit slow to figure things out!

I taught a few classes this afternoon.  Usually I rehearse afterwards, but I had a dog waiting for me. I was tempted to go out to eat. But I believe this is what is contributing to my pain. My very wise daughter informed me that restaurant food has very high sodium content.  I know this. I just don't like to think about certain things.

So I stopped at the store and picked up a few items for a nice dinner for one.

I had steak, sauteed mushrooms, brussels sprouts, wild rice and mussels. And a beer.  And I was done eating at 7:00 p.m. Pretty good for a wild woman on her own right?

Happy Friday!  :)

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