Day 91: The End of Time

" Richard Feynman once quipped that "Time is what happens when nothing else does." But Julian Barbour disagrees: if nothing happened, if nothing changed, then time would stop. For time is nothing but change. It is change that we perceive occurring all around us, not time. Put simply, time does not exist." Review of The End of Time; The Next Revolution in Physics buy Julian Barbour.

91 days. WOW. I've said this before. But I will say it again. Days go by. Whether we are truly aware of them or not. We are aging. We are changing. Whether we want to be mindful of the process or ignore it.

Years ago I picked up a book called The End of Time: The Next Revolution in Physics by Julian Barbour. Fascinating book. I got about one third of the way. I highlighted half of it. I had to stop after every paragraph and ponder. Some day I will finish that book!

I could have let 91 days go by living as I had for years. Thinking "some day" I will address my eating habits. When I am ready, I will start exercising.

I see where that got me. 53 years old. Overweight. Tired. Depressed. Fed up.

I certainly have not found any miracle cure. I am not on top of a mountain saying "I've found it!" I have good days and bad days. Challenging moments and moments of profound joy.

But I am taking a good hard look at myself. And I am not letting myself be lazy and ambivalent anymore! I am not making excuses for myself.

There is room for improvement. But I also would like to leave room for enjoying life. I cannot see this trip as linear. I mean we all know there is an ultimate end to this mortal life. I do believe in an after life. But I am not getting out of this life alive. Sometimes I kid myself. I think of improving myself more and more each day until...POOF! I have made it! I am perfect!

LOL. Then I wake up.

So losing weight is not the end. It is only the beginning. So much of life yet to explore. And I hope to continue to improve my health so that I can actually enjoy the journey!

Today is meal prep day. I am really excited about this!

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