Year Three, Day 272:: The Batlight

When I think back on my life, the most prevailing emotion I recall is fear.

Now I perceive it as anxiety.

It can be paralyzing. Perhaps that is why I find visualizing myself as a female Samurai warrior to be so empowering.

I am thinking about studying martial arts again.

Last night, my little flashlight ran out of batteries. I have just begun carrying it. Makes more sense than hoping and praying I don't get hit by a car on the walk home in the dark. On a road without sidewalks.

But as I considered stopping to buy new batteries, a thought popped into my head.

"A Samurai would be better prepared"!

That was all the incentive I needed. I hightailed it to Wal-Mart in search of a big, powerful flashlight. Preferably one that could be used to protect myself, should the need arise.

And lo and behold; the "Batlight"!

Just what a commuting Samurai grandma needs!

And on that note, I wish you a happy Friday!

Love,

Samurai Z

P.S. Here is today's hooping video. Day 232!

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