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Year Three, Day 276: My Heart

I almost passed out running for the Max this morning. The bus pulled up to the station.  I told myself that Samurai do not take elevators as I trudged towards the stairs.

I should have taken the elevator.  Halfway up, my chest tightened and I became short of breath. Then I noticed the Max was about to depart. I needed to make it to the Parkrose Transit Center to catch my bus to Vancouver so I could help my daughter.

So I speed walked to the Max, clutching my heart. I made it on time. I slumped down in the seat and dug in my purse for my inhaler. After a few moments, my breath returned.

Luckily today was my free coffee day at Starbucks. I figured a Venti Blonde Almond Vanilla Latte with only one pump of sweetener would get the lead out.

It didn't. I feel like I could lose consciousness at any moment.

I know. Most dramatic am I!

My daughter took one look at me and sternly ordered me to make a doctor's appointment. She told me to highlight my fatigue, shortness of breath, lightheadedness and daily near fainting episodes. She also recommended if I have another episode, that maybe I should go to the ER.  I honestly had not even considered that.  I am making a note of it.

So, I called my clinic.  I made an appointment for Monday. With the nurse practitioner. She takes my symptoms more seriously than the doctor.

Monday is President's Day. The music center is closed, so I have the entire day off! I am going to spend it wisely. Doctor in the morning, dentist in the afternoon.

And either a long nap, or, if I'm conscious, a workout at the gym and soak in the hot tub.

Hanging out with Baby Gracie did raise my spirits though! I do want to get healthy so I can spend as much time with my family as possible!

I would not want to miss out on a moment of this little angel's life!




On that note, I am going out in search of a good Kombucha.  Need to stay awake to teach piano this afternoon, and accompany a choir this evening.

Talk to you tomorrow!

Love,

Zita

P.S. I managed to get my daily hooping in.  Day 236.  I will never give up!






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