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Day 187: Longing for My Czech Grandma's Homemade Bread

Up with the chickens, I am! I don't have chickens. But I know they get up early.

My grandma on my mom's side, Grandma Annie, raised four children, mostly on her own on a little farm in the town of West, Texas. This is the city that was devastated by the fertilizer plant explosions a few years ago. Before then , most people had not even heard of this little Czechoslovakian community. My mother's family was Czech. Grandma Annie's parents came to the United States in the early 1900's.

Whenever I feel like my life is difficult, I remember my grandma. I imagine what her life was like. Raising four kids in the depression. Her husband died when my mother, the third of four children was just a baby. Thankfully, Grandma Annie's sister Bessie lived with them. Great Aunt Bessie lived her entire life, single, helping raise the kids. And they both got up with the chickens. When I stayed  with them, as a teenager, I remember hearing them stir at 4:3 a.m. Shortly after that, th entire little house would be filled with the heavenly aroma of fresh baked, yeasty bread.

That generation is long gone. I wish I could have spent more time on that farm in Texas. We moved up to the Pacific northwest when I was very young. My father's family did not welcome us. I think I spent my entire childhood longing to be back in West, with a family that got up with the chickens, made homemade bread, and "kolaches" (a Czech pastry), and loved each other. How would my life be now, if I had been cherished instead of chastised?

Ah, but I am who I am! And I need to shake off these feelings and greet the day.

I am needing to make it to Mass this morning. Then a school musical rehearsal. I thought it was a two hour practice, but I got an email yesterday from my friend Jeanne who writes and directs  (and hires me!) that informed me it was only one hour. I was thrilled, actually. This will give me enough time to get a gym workout in before my afternoon piano students!

But what I wouldn't give for a thick slab of my grandma's homemade bread coated in real butter right now!

Somehow I think that the gluten in that bread  wouldn't hurt my tummy at all!

Happy Friday!


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