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Year Three, Day 26: Celebration Breakfast!

I slept better last night. I even read my note to myself to motivate me to wake up earlier.

I did wake up earlier. A bit. I still hit the snooze button several times, but actually got vertical at 7:45 a.m.!  Too late to run at the school track, since school children would be walking to school at that time.  So I packed my back with my current Thomas Merton book and my prayer journal. Then I walked 3/4 miles up to the Wichita Pub. And had a nice celebration breakfast!

What am I celebrating?  Getting up earlier!  And also having survived choir practice last night.  I led the choir in our final rehearsal before our performance next week. Our director was busy at the college, and asked me to lead.  I was most nervous! I have done this before, but it is outside my comfort zone. I always go through many hours of agonizing self doubt.  But I devised a plan. I had the men come in at 7:00 p.m. I played just their parts, no accompaniment. I ran it like a big sectional.  Then the women came in at 7:30 p.m. and I did the same thing. Very basic.  No directing, just me playing piano, them singing and all of us listening.  It was good grunt work. At 8:00, I got the whole choir together and we ran the entire program!

I heard good feedback. I am definitely not a choir conductor. I do not have the confidence or expertise. But I can play the piano. And I have a good ear. I have attempted to study voice a few times over the years. I may do it again. I have never been pleased with my voice. Or breath control. Especially this year with much allergies!

But still. I am relieved.  I did it! And as far as I know, no one hates me!

I am working with the altos again the night before the concert.

Relief is great for my mood. I have yet to figure out how to overcome anxiety, other than to just keep putting one foot in front of the other. The same thing I do for depression.

Since I ate such a large breakfast today, I made it through my 3 hour office job, with hardly a tummy rumble! I have thought about making breakfast my biggest meal of the day. But I am not usually so hungry in the morning.








But today, I will alter my eating plan.  I had a little snack at 1:00 p.m. 2 rice cakes, smeared with goat cheese and 4 strawberries. I am also drinking more water.  The Safeway near my home has water infused with rosemary and lemon. It was on sale. So I bought 3 bottles.  It is really refreshing and encourages me to consume more water!



This afternoon I will eat more fruit.  I will probably have to have a light lunch on the road. Otherwise I will be famished this evening. It will be interesting to see how this change affects me.

I like having my largest meal about 2:30 on the road. I can usually get a good lunch at one of my "regular" spots for about $8.00.  I usually have instant oatmeal and fruit during breaks at my office job. But I find I end up feeling a little anxious, worrying about what I will eat next. Having a big breakfast early does seem to quell the anxiety!

Food for thought!

I managed to get in 103 rotations of my hula hoop before work this morning. Plus walking.

I am still working toward getting up early enough to run at the track. I love that.

But I am feeling good today.

On that note, Happy Wednesday!

I am still focusing on the fruit of the spirit "gentleness" week. And reading much Thomas Merton! They seem to go hand in hand!


Talk to you tomorrow.

Love,

Zita

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