I wish I would have worn my "STRONG" t-shirt today!
I stood up for myself, and others today. In a firm, but honest, clear and kind manner.
I am now shaking like a leaf. And I would like to sit down and cry. It is hard for me to take a stand, but I will stand up for others, and for myself if I feel there is injustice.
I cannot break down and cry. I will not!
I am at my church office job. I am an adult. I am a mother. I am a grandmother.
I am a Christian.
I am a child of God.
I am a survivor.
I will not go into details, but someone visited me in the office this morning as I was doing a rush copy job for my boss.
She burst in. I said, "Good Morning".
She did not look like she was having a good morning. I inhaled inside my head. This person has been a thorn in my side. I pray for her. But she brings negativity. At least to me. I sense she does not approve of me.
I asked her how she was and she blurted out, "Frustrated".
I can't believe myself, but I calmly said, "Ok. Please hang on to your frustration for a moment. Take a deep breath. I have to finish this job for the pastor. She is picking it up in a few minutes".
My friend politely waited.
Then, I turned to her and asked, "How may I help you?"
OY. She had some complaints and grievances.
I felt my armor come up. But I decided this would be a good time to clear the air.
I told her that what occurred was not my fault. And all parties believed they were doing the right thing. And furthermore, sometimes she was the only person I saw all day, in church. A house of GOD. And her negativity affected me. We should of all places, treat each other kinder here.
But I told her I wanted to help. With my boss's approval I would.
I told her I am strong. I am taking care of a newborn. And I want to bring positivity to my position.
She told me she was not mad at me. She said she was sorry. I said I was sorry too.
I understand her frustration. But I refuse to accept complaining and negativity. Here or anywhere else.
I hope I still have my job tomorrow.
But if not, I have my integrity!
I am woman. I am strong!
I am a survivor.
But I take seriously my walk with Jesus. And "The Greatest Commandment":