Year Three, Day 244: Bright Eyed and Bushy Tailed

Looks can be deceiving. I am sleep deprived. I slept maybe 3 hours total last night.

Not sure exactly what was going on. I was at my daughter and son-in-law's trailer overnight. I had Baby Gracie duty this morning. I may have had too much caffeine. I also ate late at night. Chipotle with my son at 9:00 p.m.

I can never turn down son time. He met me at the Cascade Max Station. We had a nice meal and chatted. Then he got on the Max and I called Lyft for a ride to Vancouver.

I did well with my meal. I had a chicken rice bowl. With brown rice. No cheese or tomatoes.

I had a swig of vinegar before dinner and before bed. But I was wide awake until 4:00 a.m. Thoughts racing. Actually thinking clearly. A lot of memories flooding back at me. I knew I would pay for it today. I am.

But at least I look energetic. I was curious where the saying "bright eyed and bushy tailed" came from. Apparently squirrels. " As in 'Here is my new kindergarten class, all bright eyed and bushy tailed.' The allusion here is to the appearance of a squirrel, which with its beady eyes and bushy tail looks ready for anything. 1930s"
( https://www.urbandictionary.co/define.php?term=bright%20eyed%20and%20bushy%20tailed)

I was doing well yesterday. Very little coughing. But today it is back. I am tired. A bit anxious too. I am still working on smaller meals, chewing more, no dairy, tomatoes, onions, wheat, sugar, small amounts of meat - mostly chicken.

I am a work in progress!

I need to keep this blog brief. I am on my way to teach piano class.

Wish me luck - I just want to lay on the floor and take a long winter's nap!

Talk to you tomorrow!

Love,

Zita

p.s. Here is today's hooping video. Day 206 and counting!

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