Day 336: "...Early to Rise"

So here I am. Awake at 5:30 a.m. up with the chickens, I am.

I guess chickens are morning birds.

I am playing the piano for a Catholic church this morning. 'm y second audition for this congregation. The Father told me there is some "stiff competition". This makes me a little nervous. Not big on competition.I wish I wasn't aware of this. But I suppose I can make. this positive by cell B-)myself this is a "learning experience". An opportunity for growth"...oh well, I will.console myself with a nice visit to Starbucks before church. Added incentive is that I have time for a nice long workout at the gym today. Yay! :)

My psalm of the day sounds rather dark but reading throughout th it, I feel comforted going in to an audition. I makes me feel courageous. Please keep me in your prayers as I tackle life's little hurdles, especially my own anxieties

Oh yes, and have a happy Sunday! :)

Psalm 28

To you, Lord, I call;
    you are my Rock,
    do not turn a deaf ear to me.
For if you remain silent,
    I will be like those who go down to the pit.
2 Hear my cry for mercy
    as I call to you for help,
as I lift up my hands
    toward your Most Holy Place.

3 Do not drag me away with the wicked,
    with those who do evil,
who speak cordially with their neighbors
    but harbor malice in their hearts.
4 Repay them for their deeds
    and for their evil work;
repay them for what their hands have done
    and bring back on them what they deserve.

5 Because they have no regard for the deeds of the Lord
and what his hands have done,
he will tear them down
and never build them up again.

6 Praise be to the Lord,
    for he has heard my cry for mercy.
7 The Lord is my strength and my shield;
    my heart trusts in him, and he helps me.
My heart leaps for joy,
    and with my song I praise him.

8 The Lord is the strength of his people,
a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.
9 Save your people and bless your inheritance;
be their shepherd and carry them forever.

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